My Hero

24.02.2012

This post goes to the love of my life, est. i was born; MR. LM Zainal :)

   Just so you know, i am very close to this handsome, boyan-malay, tough guy ever since i was a kiddo. we do many things together; play bowling, go swimming, horse riding by the sea shore, go watch movie, shopping, hah you name it! Unfortunately, he lives hundreds of kilometres away from me due to the demand of his work. So, i only get to see him on weekends, some times, 2 weeks once :( fuck life. le sigh

   But heyy, he calls me three times a day everyday without fail. he will be my alarm clock, waking me up in the morning for school, asking me what am i having for lunch and what is he having, and at night, he'll ask me have i finished my homework and stuffs. my day wouldn't be complete without hearing his voice, yeah the fact that i couldn't get to see his face everyday sucks.

   Life's a bitch, but we just have to try to cope with it and get used to it. Well, back to the main topic; today is his birthday and i bought him a new Wallet since i once saw his old one got eaten up by time, few weeks back. he's wont be home today, he said to me he'll come back tomorrow. I hope he'll be flabbergasted with this gift and like it! since he's a fan of genuine leather wallet, i decided to grab this one. This is nothing, really. compared to what he has sacrificed for me for the past of my sixteen years & ++ months of living in this world. Really looking forward to meet this guy that i love the most in this whole wide world real soon!

sho shad :(

ze ex boyfriend told me that his Blackberry got ruined so he bought a new one. and i just remembered that we have this one group contact in BlackBerry Messenger for both of us, he created. whenever i get mad at him, i'll straight away remove him from my BBM contacts, Facebook, Twitter, also.. i will leave this group on BBM (hah so typical Zaida. hehe) 

and one day when he's all alone in that group, he decided to make it as a diary. aww :) so he'll type everything of what he feels. sad, or happy. and sometimes we'll post up our pictures there, send random messages and stuff...HOWEVER!

i remembered that i didn't join back with that group ever since we got back together recently! and he changed his pin and his phone! that means that bloody group is in his old phone! which he left at the phone shop! that means all of our memories..GONE LORHHHHHH! aiyakkk :(

yeah i really feel bad about this, he should feel the same either. le sigh but whatodo, gone means gone. life has to move on. LOL hah nevermind, i've munched few screens before, let's just leave the memories behind and we'll create a new one alright, love? A better one :D

oh yeah one more, http://www.tuahbibir.blogspot.com/ is his blogspot. he updated a few times only, then he stopped. he said let it stay like how it is. he doesnt want to add anything or remove anything. he want it to be another part of our memories. HONESTLY speaking, i always melt everytime i go and visit his blog. i dont know but, we always quarrel and fight but i always end up loving you more each day. call me stupid but i know my Muhammad Alif Ikhwan is not an ordinary lover, he is something :)

I Like It When..

• you put your hands on my head when we are walking under the sun or in the rain
• you feed me popcorns when we watch movie

• you whisper iloveyou to me
• you kiss my cheeks before i go home

• you play with my bulu tangan. eh? hahaha
• you're there for me when even the walls could not be my listener

• you hold my hand
• you feed me food like a baby

• you send random pictures of what you wrote in the paper
• you always never fail to send me goodnight and goodmorning texts
• you say you would marry me even if i know how to cook ikan bilis goreng only :D

• you made a video of my pictures
• our conversation never ends
• you still do love me :)

it's funny how we are no longer together officially, but the love is getting stronger each day. you've brought colors to my life, i love you :)



A Night To Remember

   so Shuhada Voon; my best partner in crime and I decided to have dinner at Strawberry Moments at De Garden. the food was not bad.  we had Strawberry Mini Steamboat, Chicken Spaghetti, Chicken Pasta, French Fries, Wedges, Ice Creams, Strawberry White Coffee, Strawberry Frosty, Strawberry this, Strawberry that. Hell yeah we were goddamn bloated!

Ze Meals

Chicken Pasta

and ze ex-boyfriend wanted to meet me after dinner so i packed a Strawberry Mini Steamboat for him. he said he wanted to give me something, few hours back. was really happy to see him just now. look, we only live a few minutes away from each other but we seem to live hundred miles away from each other. le sigh

i was so flabbergasted! i've been wanting a panda beenie hat for ages, and guess what? he bought it for me! and the happy feelings and whatnot have doubled, yeay!and then we went to Old Town Kopitiam. had some catching up session, god knows how much i missed him. and then he sent me back home. i told him i was having a major headache for couple of days already, he stopped by at 7eleven to buy panadols for me. so sweet of him eh? oh well, my boy (˘⌣˘)ε˘`)  and yeah i could still remember how he kissed my cheeks kazillion times and my forehead before he dropped me off, he said he missed me so much, so that's why. haha

fact is, we're still doing steady even after breaking up in April last year. i've been single for 10 months and 2 days now. it's a LONG story, many things have happened and i dont have the mood to elaborate on this cause i probably could make a novel on our love story by the time i finish typing about it. yes, that dramatic. see, we are having a very complex, undefined, loving, exboyfriend-exgirlfriend relationship, you wont understand. so yeah, that's about it for now, im fatigued and i need my beauty sleep. toodles!



 notice my short hair? ;)

suppfresh!

well hello hello readers! pardon me for being lackadaisical about posting stuff here. it's been WAY too long since i last posted in Blogger. it's not that i've lost my passion in blogging, but im incapable of blogging that often anymore, for some unavoidable reasons. im gonna shorten this post, so here's some of my updates for now :-

• my weekdays are packed with tuition classes, yes. Mondays to Fridays
• i'll be joining Cheerleading again this year!
• im still single, heh
• i've cut my hair short
• i took out my tongue piercing
• i'll be sitting for my SPM examination this year

that's all for now i guess. oh more updates on www.twitter.com/zighduhhh  i find it more convenient to tweet up through my Blackberry instead of blogging, so yeah. that's why :)