random post (english subject homework)

It was a dark, windy night when he left me. The sky was so gloomy that i can barely see the moon that has been covered by streaks of thick grey clouds. I don't know, everything felt different that night. Maybe i was driven by volatile emotions.

 Expect the unexpected, they said. It's like the sky fell on me when he said those dreaded words, "If you still want me, please forgive me, the crown of love has fallen from me." He left me speechless, so speechless. I took a deep breath and walked out the restaurant, tried hard to hold back my tears. I didn't want him to see me wearing emotions on my sleeve.
 I took a different route back home. I chose to walk instead of taking a cab. It was a long journey indeed yet I was too torn to feel fatigue. Reminiscing what we both have been through all these years, through thick and thin, i kept questioning why did he choose to give up that night?

 Nothing hurts more than realizing that he was everything to me but i am just another typical girl from college to him. I came to notice his changes a few weeks back. He's nothing like he used to be now. No more late night calls, random text messages, we barely even go for dates anymore. My mistake was still holding on to him after he had let me go. Relationship without trust is like a cellphone with no service. What do you do with a cellphone with no service? You play games.

I doubted enough. So one day after class, I met him and i said "I wish we could just sit and talk and figure out how we feel about each other." He looked at me with his James Dean glossy eyes and replied, "Alright love, 8pm tonight, David's Dinner."

 I really thought we could fix things out. I was wrong. You never wanted that way. What more could i say? People change, our days go wrong, shit happens, but life goes on. I'll take this as a life experience. I learn not to take things for granted, I learn not to believe sweet talks and promises, and I learn not to give up. When the going gets rough, and you feel like you may fall, just look on the bright side because it might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever :)

by Zaida Zainal.

AWAY

I'll come back when I come back.

Beauty 101

Today i would like to share some random tips on beauty with you readers. There are some of them that I've tried before and it works! 

• For healthy shiny black hair
• apply some coconut milk (santan) to your hair. After 15 minutes, wash your hair. (shampoo & condition if needed). this can be done twice a week.
• To get rid of scars
• scrub the inner skin of banana to your scars. you have to do this regularly to get the best result.

• For reddish-pink lips
• apply some colgate to your lips before you go to sleep. wash it off the next morning
• For oily/brighter skin
• cleanse your face using oatmeal (any brand will do. im using Quaker Oatmeal). wet two tablespoon of oatmeal until you get a paste-like texture. not to thick, not to watery, and scrub it all  to your face for about 1 minute and rinse with cold water. NEVER wash your face with lukewarm water as it will make your pores bigger and absorb more dirt.
• mix 2 tablespoon of mashed pumpkin, 2 tablespoon of plain yougurt, and 1 tablespoon of honey. after mixing, apply to your face and rinse after 15 minutes. DO NOT EXCEED 15 MINUTES or it will irritate your skin. you can keep the leftovers in the refrigerator for the next use. maximum 2 weeks!
• To get rid of dandruff
• cut a lime (limau purut) (or more, if you want) into two and rub it to your scalp. do not scrub too hard or it will injure your skin.  wait for 15 minutes and rinse it off (shampoo and condition if needed)
• For brighter underarms/elbows/knees
• cut a lime (limau nipis) and rub it to your underarms, and rinse it after 15 minutes. DO NOT do this after you shave cause it will burn your skin. so do this before you shave!
• To make nail polish dry faster
• after applying your nail polish, soak your nails to a container of cold water. make sure the water is REALLY cold, put in some ice into the water for some time and take it out before you soak your fingers or it will destroy your beautiful painted nails. soak in for 1-2 minutes and your nails are done! :D
• To get rid of eyebags and dark circles
• soak a wet tissue in water and let it frizz. dab it to your eyes before you go to sleep and after you wake up in the morning.

That's all for now but heyy, it's impossibru to get an instant result since most of the ingredients here are all natural, so it might take some time. Goodluck! (:

not a fan of goodbyes

BUT IF THIS SHIT MAKES ME FEEL HURT DAY BY DAY, I GUESS I SHOULD BETTER GET GOING, AWAY FROM YOU. 

take care, love.

confession to make

  I speak out my mind, and I don't let anyone to censor me. But sometimes, somehow, the words i've wanted to say so much couldn't seem to be thrown out from my mouth. It's like some cellophane tape sticking on my mouth, stopping me from saying it. I find that things might turn out awful or just a waste of time. 'cause people nowadays tend to not care of what others say to them. 

Again, it's saddening to see how some people have changed so much as the time passes by :(

criminal

You're no longer of what you are before. It's sad to swallow the fact that people change, but it's worst to see how they are changing. Who doesn't love attention? Well, some freaks might not, but my point is, it's nothing wrong with being the center of attraction but always bare in mind to not cross the line. When you started being known by others, you started putting me aside. Maybe you're enjoying the stage of your life until you forget that i used to be your somebody, well i hope i still am. It's not that I want your sympathy but like I said, things were way different back then, in a good way.

I wonder what's your intention. What do you really seek from me. Why did you come back for me. These questions have been playing on my mind lately, why did you do this if your intention wasn't being together again? Is this some kind of a joke or something? 'Cause I don't find it funny. Look, don't toy up with my heart 'cause it's going to cost you much, dear. I didn't want much, knowing that I am still in your heart since long ago is more than enough.

Poor thing is I felt that this feeling that we had few months back is starting to fade away. Don't you think it's funny when people keep asking "what's wrong with you?" when they are actually wrong somewhere themselves. Never ask others, ask yourself. If this isn't what you wanted, then let me go. If not, I want the old you, give me the old you.

I cared too much, I loved too much. They are all crimes. Yes, loving you is somehow a kind of crime. And now I pleaded guilty to the crimes I did, and now being punished equally; I feel hurt so much. I think I deserve this.

gotcha

We don't know how we got into this mad situation

 only doing things out of frustration,

 trying to make it work but man these times are hard.

breakeven

I've always hated Monday so much, THIS much. So i still do. To top that up, last night didn't end so well. And just when i woke up to my annoying alarm clock, i can already tell that today is going to be different. I went to school with a very good friend of mine, mom wasn't able to send me to school, so i took the initiative to text her mom. Well i could just skip school if i wish to, but i surely gonna miss some crucial subjects. since i am quite a slow-learner, i might be having difficulties on catching up shits, so yeah.

 My day went better few hours later, i've broke some hearts, i know. But i apologized, truly from the bottom of my heart. I ain't gonna put this matter under a microscopic lens. I screwed up, and as what i said earlier, i apologized. Things are cool now, i hope this will last. And no, this has nothing to do with baybay. I had trouble with transportation to my computer class, he wanted to send and fetch me earlier, so sweet of him no? hee. But i cleared off shits earlier, so problem solved! :D
 Oh anyway, I'll be performing on Main Convent Ipoh's IU Day. check out the promo :D

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=311646915568303 

 But you need to log in to your Facebook account to go watch it, alright? less than a week to go! im excited! yeah you can tell that from the exclamation marks. LOL so i'll be dancing to some hindustan songs, and and will be wearing Punjabi Suit. *yeayyy* I'll take some pictures of me wearing it and will try to get someone to record it, if i get to. hah look at the time, another day has just gone. Im hitting ze sack soon, ciao.

Confession #8, 

I promise there hasn't been a day i stop wanting you & you haven't got out of my mind at all since i first met you.

I'm afraid of losing you, 

yet you're not even mine.

All The Small Things

Just got back from hanging out with my bubs. Didn't really plan it though, 'cause we're so the-last-minute-gang. Had a blast lepak-ing at Chatime with some milk tea, snacking on some Cheezy Wedges at KFC (i hate this fast food restaurant the most, only loving it for it's wedges), singing our buttocks out at Prinz KTV, Mek Dono ice-cream session, foreign language learning session at MPH & gossiping. Damn we guffawed hella much today, didn't we? You know, it feels good to spend some quality time with your peeps only and not to go all crazy about your lover. You might like to try being a little zany yourself today, just like what we did. I never bothered about what the society thinks. Call me immature but i"ll let you know when i'll have a fuck to give, alright? I guess that's pretty much it, thanks for the memories gang, looking forward for the next outing, but looking even more forward  to brouhaha again together.

Much love, Ah Weng. (LOL)