nor zodo zonol hotos rojo zorol omon :P

Hello creatures, im officially fifteen last thursday.i had not much of blast like last years.but surprisingly i've received tonnes of calls nd messages from the loved ones nd also 4 pages of birthday wishes on my Facebook profile from friends there.much appreciated <3

coolest present for this year?

having syahirah infront of me nd get to hug her on my birthday.geez,it's been awhile since you've gone to paris.i love you akak :]

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candid shot by adilah.this picture was taken on last tuesday maybe?at tuition class with my gaymate, Ardina :D

Nahh see, we even have the same bottle tau tak!nd not forgettin our blue files, nd the F.O.S. ecofriendly bag HAHA

massively tired

went to tuition class this morning
nd then off to parkson/ipoh parade
had lunch alone.luckily yen accompanied me so atleast I've someone to talk to
waited for anies nd tasya
went to popular; checking out some books
...(mana tasya dengan anies ni)
went to imax
FINALLY!you guys're here.fiuhh
walk here walk there
lepak at kopitiam with their friends, (they're so nuts) haha :]
do silly things,take pictures
walk here walk there again.nd eh eh i saw Alam from Wakaka Crew,dia dengan girlf dia kot?
waited for shu
tasya went back home
had dinner with shu nd anies
lepak at kopitiam balik (met anies's family,menunggu boyfriendnya makan lama beno)
nd FINALLY!again..haha we headed to Digi's Live Tour Concert

overall the event was just alright.takde pun best sangat.surrounded by macam2 jenis orang kat situ
we (shu nd I) went there just to watch Estranged's drummer, Andy :D

but dia tak ada :((((((((((

so we went back early lepas habis Disagree punya performance.my feet are killin me!due to loads of walking from a.m. to p.m. nd then tadi one of my friends from Facebook kasi tau Floor Fever ada.SHAAIIIIITTTTTT!!!!!aku dah balik :(

geeez,sakit hati dah tarak,sakit kaki pulak datangnya.walau apepun,tasya,anies,shu,khalee,nd the rest,you guys really made my day.i love you :]

p/s:nanti saya rajin saya upload gambo ye hehe

expect the unexpected

i love the way you lie to me. very interesting and creative indeed

when boredom comes alive

i take pictures

pretend to be a "yakuza pencen"

smile and stare at the camera

i'll go find my teddy

give him a major attack hug!

bully him

try to act like a cat

become a supermodel

and bully him summore

and more!

or probabbly do nothing.

p/s: the gigantic teddy bear was a gift from my dad for my 13th birthday :]

nd by the way dad,i miss you ♥

tiny ego dream of mine

i miss you,yeah you!

sorry for not picking up your calls.sorry for not replying your messages.it's not that i hate you,or something bad happened to me,or i've moved on already.NO!it's really hard to forget you, nd even to let you go.my tears run down easily these days whenever i receive your calls or messages.day by day i struggle to be strong nd get myself busy with stufff nd all, nd yet i realised the screaming pain.it's so hard to lie to yourself when you cant forget the people you love the most,letting him go,seeing him happy with someone else.it's sad to see the time passes by nd you're still doing nothing,it's a shame to see yourself crying alone for your own past mistakes.like i said,i wanted nothing much.i just want you back.it's really painful when sometimes i came across our 2 years of good old memories together.i was always being forgiving nd i always give chances when you screwed up.why is it so hard to do so?why are you so concern about me when you said you didnt love me anymore?why are you treating me so nice nd why are you giving me fake hopes?

im not strong enough to let it out to you.i dont have guts anymore.my hands are shivering as i am typing this post.i dont know what am i feeling right now.i apologize in advance to some certain people for posting this.i know im nobody anymore nd i dont have the right so say this.but i just want YOU to know what i really feel all these whiles.it was just okay for me at the beginning.but now,what that i can see is im not as strong as i used to be.im sorry but Raja Zairul Aiman bin Raja Zainal,a million years from now,you know i'll be loving you still :(

est. 18 July 2008,i never stopped loving you.i swear

S kata "jangan tunggu apa yang tak mungkin"
Z kata "takpe, aku tunggu"

*she sheds her bitter tears away