not a fan of goodbyes

BUT IF THIS SHIT MAKES ME FEEL HURT DAY BY DAY, I GUESS I SHOULD BETTER GET GOING, AWAY FROM YOU. 

take care, love.

confession to make

  I speak out my mind, and I don't let anyone to censor me. But sometimes, somehow, the words i've wanted to say so much couldn't seem to be thrown out from my mouth. It's like some cellophane tape sticking on my mouth, stopping me from saying it. I find that things might turn out awful or just a waste of time. 'cause people nowadays tend to not care of what others say to them. 

Again, it's saddening to see how some people have changed so much as the time passes by :(

criminal

You're no longer of what you are before. It's sad to swallow the fact that people change, but it's worst to see how they are changing. Who doesn't love attention? Well, some freaks might not, but my point is, it's nothing wrong with being the center of attraction but always bare in mind to not cross the line. When you started being known by others, you started putting me aside. Maybe you're enjoying the stage of your life until you forget that i used to be your somebody, well i hope i still am. It's not that I want your sympathy but like I said, things were way different back then, in a good way.

I wonder what's your intention. What do you really seek from me. Why did you come back for me. These questions have been playing on my mind lately, why did you do this if your intention wasn't being together again? Is this some kind of a joke or something? 'Cause I don't find it funny. Look, don't toy up with my heart 'cause it's going to cost you much, dear. I didn't want much, knowing that I am still in your heart since long ago is more than enough.

Poor thing is I felt that this feeling that we had few months back is starting to fade away. Don't you think it's funny when people keep asking "what's wrong with you?" when they are actually wrong somewhere themselves. Never ask others, ask yourself. If this isn't what you wanted, then let me go. If not, I want the old you, give me the old you.

I cared too much, I loved too much. They are all crimes. Yes, loving you is somehow a kind of crime. And now I pleaded guilty to the crimes I did, and now being punished equally; I feel hurt so much. I think I deserve this.

gotcha

We don't know how we got into this mad situation

 only doing things out of frustration,

 trying to make it work but man these times are hard.

breakeven

I've always hated Monday so much, THIS much. So i still do. To top that up, last night didn't end so well. And just when i woke up to my annoying alarm clock, i can already tell that today is going to be different. I went to school with a very good friend of mine, mom wasn't able to send me to school, so i took the initiative to text her mom. Well i could just skip school if i wish to, but i surely gonna miss some crucial subjects. since i am quite a slow-learner, i might be having difficulties on catching up shits, so yeah.

 My day went better few hours later, i've broke some hearts, i know. But i apologized, truly from the bottom of my heart. I ain't gonna put this matter under a microscopic lens. I screwed up, and as what i said earlier, i apologized. Things are cool now, i hope this will last. And no, this has nothing to do with baybay. I had trouble with transportation to my computer class, he wanted to send and fetch me earlier, so sweet of him no? hee. But i cleared off shits earlier, so problem solved! :D
 Oh anyway, I'll be performing on Main Convent Ipoh's IU Day. check out the promo :D

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=311646915568303 

 But you need to log in to your Facebook account to go watch it, alright? less than a week to go! im excited! yeah you can tell that from the exclamation marks. LOL so i'll be dancing to some hindustan songs, and and will be wearing Punjabi Suit. *yeayyy* I'll take some pictures of me wearing it and will try to get someone to record it, if i get to. hah look at the time, another day has just gone. Im hitting ze sack soon, ciao.

Confession #8, 

I promise there hasn't been a day i stop wanting you & you haven't got out of my mind at all since i first met you.

I'm afraid of losing you, 

yet you're not even mine.

All The Small Things

Just got back from hanging out with my bubs. Didn't really plan it though, 'cause we're so the-last-minute-gang. Had a blast lepak-ing at Chatime with some milk tea, snacking on some Cheezy Wedges at KFC (i hate this fast food restaurant the most, only loving it for it's wedges), singing our buttocks out at Prinz KTV, Mek Dono ice-cream session, foreign language learning session at MPH & gossiping. Damn we guffawed hella much today, didn't we? You know, it feels good to spend some quality time with your peeps only and not to go all crazy about your lover. You might like to try being a little zany yourself today, just like what we did. I never bothered about what the society thinks. Call me immature but i"ll let you know when i'll have a fuck to give, alright? I guess that's pretty much it, thanks for the memories gang, looking forward for the next outing, but looking even more forward  to brouhaha again together.

Much love, Ah Weng. (LOL)

Isn't it irony how you always start to realize my importance in your life only after you decided to leave me? Think again. 

iloveyouTHISbig

yup, the title says it all. been missing baybay like crazy, the holidays have started, tapi dapat jumpa berapa kali je. didn't get to spend much time with him due to the demand of his work schedule, yup he's working now. (waa look at him, all grown up. dulu school kid je).
 so i did hang out with him last Wednesday, sekejap sangat then i started to miss him again. le sigh. i went out for  a movie with my girlfriend actually, wanted baybay to join us but my friend's sister have bought the tickets few hours earlier before i get to tell her. hmph
 Baybay's off day is on Sundays, today's Sunday so apa lagi go dating ler :D we went to this karaoke outlet near Dataran, called OTK. i really had tonnes of fun with him, singing our heart out to all genres of songs, haha i was shy at first lastlast aku yang conquer microphone. LOL then we had lunch together there, nyanyi sambil ada orang suapkan makan, damn i feel like a little girl :) it's been awhile since i get to spend time with him, only the two of us. i just love the way he sing to me, hold my hands, nibble my ears, bite my shoulder, kiss my forehead, i don't know lah but baybay seems attracted to my fat belly sangat-sangat .___.
 we took pictures, which i didn't get to see it yet. it's in his phone, and hyeah..imma post it up once i got it yeah? he's the most awesome-st ex boyfriend in the world, ever! God, he never failed to make me love him more each day. i really feel comfortable with him, i hope that we won't screw up for the second time, or anyone.

baybay, iloveyouTHISbig. yayaya, i know you readers/followers/stalkers must have feel nauseated by my post. hahaha k enough, imma put this to a dot, ciao.

"Tuhan, jika memang dia lah untukku, biarkan kebahagiaanku kali ni kekal lama, sesungguhnya aku cinta dirinya lebih dari segala yang kumampu."